Missing you on your Birthday!!

My son, my precious child.

Today is your special day. A day we celebrate your birth!

Today, I am thankful to your birth mom and dad for having you.

I do have one regret though..... That you are spending this day alone.

Never again son!

Never again will your special day go unnoticed.

Mommy will be back to get you soon.

Tears stream down my face as I think of what this day holds for you..... nothing..... same as every other day.

Your Gma is not even with you today.

Will she come in special to see you?

Does she even know today is your birthday?

Will anyone kiss you today and tell you that you are loved?

Right now you are waking up and eating breakfast. 

Then you will probably lay in your bed for 4 hours until your next meal.

That same thing will happen 5 times today, but nothing more.

You will not be held, rocked, sang to or loved.

I am sorry, my son.

I wish I had a way to let you know that we are thinking of you.

We miss you.

We want you home.

I have your room mostly ready.

I think you are going to love it.

I am working hard to get all the money I need to fly back and get you.

Right now we are doing an ipad mini giveaway. I was hoping to pick a winner on your birthday, but we still need 25 more people. 

I know a lot of people love you and are excited to help us bring you home.

Soon, my son, I will hold you again soon :)

God please soothe my heart this day.

Please help me to get some rest.

Please help my son to feel loved.

Please help me to get my boys home quickly.