Prayers for my son

I always wonder what he is thinking. Does he know how much I care?

Does he wonder if I love him? Does he wish he was back there?

Does he think I let them hurt him? When I hand him to Doctors

Does he realize how hard it is for to sit back and watch?

Does he know how hard I'm trying just to let him feel my love?

Is there something I am missing? Is he better off Above?

Am I holding on too tightly? Am I trying way too hard?

To keep my baby near me, is the selfish thing I know!

As he cries out in pain, there is nothing I can do.

Will there ever be an answer other than sending him to you?

Why aren't there better options? Is pain or death just all there is?

Why should we have to decide? Why can't we keep him here?

His tears they bring me so much sorrow, and I wish for peace for him.

I cannot watch him in this pain anymore, but the options just seem so grim.

My son I fought so hard for you. I have big dreams for days ahead.

This is not what I imagined when I saved you from that awful place.

They did damage far beyond repair. I'm trying to make it right.

I hope you know how much I love you. I will always help you fight!

We have armies that are praying. They all wish for health for you.

I hope that we can find the answer soon. So this suffering can end!

I love you more than you will ever know. I hope that I can watch you grow!

I love you buddy!!